I wonder why I gave room to foolishness
I gave you my very all
Until I had nothing more to hold on to.
I wonder why I didn't know how
To fully express the emotions
Cluttered in the aorta of my valve
When a simple hi would have sufficed.
I was falling head over heels
When I should have stood tall
Now I am all broken, sad and crushed
beyond recognition.
How could I ever forget
The reflection of you
Which was carved in my mind
The first time I set my eyes
On your beautiful face.
The truth I held on to
Was that you will be the one
I have always dreamt about
Every passing moment.
Whose presence will fill me
With endless joy and happiness.We started out as friends,
My heart wanted more,
But my mouth kept mute,
I refused to listen
To the notes of love
Banging at the doorstep of my heart.
I wanted to speak to you,
Divulge the intents of my thought
But my mouth failed to utter
The promptings in my mind.
When I should have asked to have you
I said I did not want to lose you.
No wonder you gave a wry smile,
At the stupid nonsense I said,
If I was in my right mind
I would have realized
No one loses what they never had.
Every given opportunity,
I kept telling Niniola what I felt
She desperately wanted to hear.
I would daily remind her
How beautiful she is
Fooling myself like I was the only one
Who had monopolized access
To make her my Queen.
I chose to believe lies
And refused to see the truth all along
I was shocked like an electric fish
When Niniola told me you have never been mine
And you have never been close to being one.
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